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Dec. 26th, 2024 08:21 pmI am open to Alternate Universes, Canon-Divergence, playing fast and loose with time lines, and cross-canon/cross-universe play.
I write both het and slash ships. I am NOT interested in Padwan/Master shipping or sex, barring some extremely unusual circumstances (I am extremely interested in playing with those characters and relationships in gen/platonic scenarios, though, and as stated in some AU/canon-divergence, etc that removes the Master/Padwan dynamic, I am not unwilling to discuss ships/smut).
There is very little in terms of content or themes, sexual or otherwise, that I need warned for or am unwilling to write. Eye-gore may be it. Emotional and physical pain/hurt-comfort/angst is awesome, but so is humor and fluff and adventure.
If you're not sure or feel better checking about anything, PMs are always welcome.
I write both het and slash ships. I am NOT interested in Padwan/Master shipping or sex, barring some extremely unusual circumstances (I am extremely interested in playing with those characters and relationships in gen/platonic scenarios, though, and as stated in some AU/canon-divergence, etc that removes the Master/Padwan dynamic, I am not unwilling to discuss ships/smut).
There is very little in terms of content or themes, sexual or otherwise, that I need warned for or am unwilling to write. Eye-gore may be it. Emotional and physical pain/hurt-comfort/angst is awesome, but so is humor and fluff and adventure.
If you're not sure or feel better checking about anything, PMs are always welcome.
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Jan. 6th, 2024 09:56 pm
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Player:Becky
Canon: Star Wars
Canon Point: Just after Mustafar
Alignment: Peromei
Date of Entry: 01/06/2020
Canon: Star Wars
Canon Point: Just after Mustafar
Alignment: Peromei
Date of Entry: 01/06/2020
Age: 39
Birthday: October 21st (real answer -no clue, because Sci-Fi Calendars)
Eye Color: Blue-grey
Hair Color: Red
Height: 5'10"
Amulet: A very basic, unfaceted, stone on a plain brown leather cord.
Appearance: The most noteworthy things about Obi-Wan's appearance is related to grooming. He is of perfectly average height, his eyes are an interesting shade of blue and his hair is gingery red, and he wears a beard, but he's mostly... average. What isn't so average is that while he cares not one iota about fashion, and defaults to his basic Jedi Attire (cream tunic and pants, brown cloak, boots, and belt), he is always well groomed. Outside unusual circumstance his hair is cut, his beard is trimmed, his nails are neatly manicured, his clothes are clean, pressed, and in order. It's a thing with him.
Profile: Application Link
Contact: Wunderkindking @ plurk
Permissions: Permissions for actions done to this character.
» Backtagging: This is absolutely always fine.
» Threadhopping: Usually fine, but asking first would be nice.
» Hugging: You'll probably confuse him, but sure.
» Kissing: You will *definitely* confuse him, and fluster him for good measure, but sure.
» Fighting: Absolutely, but if physical altercation I'd like to talk it out so we know what we're doing.
» Injuring: Yes. Though let me know before anything like maiming or killing.
» Killing: I'm not opposed, but talk to me.
» Fourth Wall: Not a problem if it makes sense for your character.
» Manipulation: Knock yourself out.
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Dec. 31st, 2023 05:22 pmPlayer: Becky
Contact: Wunderkindking @ Plurk and [Bad username or site: Gmail @ com]
Age: 42
Current Characters: None
Character: Obi-Wan Kenobi
Age: 39
Canon: Star Wars
Canon Point: Just after defeating Anakin on Mustafar.
Background: https://starwars.fandom.com/wiki/Obi-Wan_Kenobi
Personality: Obi-Wan was brought to the Jedi-Temple as an infant, and his earliest memory is of Yoda. To say the Order shaped his life would be an understatement; the Order was his life.
He does not remember having a mother or a father. He was raised within the temple, with other children. He was cared for, and taught by, a variety of adults. He had friends, of course, people he was closer to and knew better and liked, (and rivalries and conflict), but this communal living that meant he was no one person's responsibility meant there was no one there for him to truly and deeply attach to. Philosophies, ideals, the concept of the greater good, and pursuit of excellence, yes, but no individual person.
This is something that will influence him, always. Within the Jedi, the few attachments he forms he considers weakness and failures - telling Yoda that while he would sacrifice Yoda, whom he was close to, to end the war a day sooner, but admitting that he would not do the same to Anakin - and without the Order makes it difficult for him to relate, and creates a gulf that can be difficult to overcome. He simply does not have the same experiences as the vast majority of other's and doesn't quite know how to relate to them on that level, or what to do with their attachments.
He spent his childhood determined to be a Jedi Knight. It was a hope, and a dream and something he applied himself to, but something that came very, very close to not happening. He was never particularly powerful - the skills he gained came from hard work, not talent. Furthermore, Qui-Gon originally found him to reckless, too brash, too angry and too much like his fallen, former, apprentice and refused him. The determination paid off, though only eventually It was only after Obi-Wan was assigned to the Agricultural branch of the Order, and circumstance forced them to work together than Qui-Gon relented.
It was a rejection that Obi-Wan never quite got over, and left the early days of their relationship strained, with frequent conflict and little to no meaningful trust between them. One of those conflicts led to disagreement about whether to leave a world, or to stay and to help. Obi-Wan wanted to stay. Qui-Gon did not. Obi-Wan ultimately stayed and for a brief time left the Jedi, entirely, in spite of how badly he had wanted to be a Knight. He was more determined to do what was right than he was to follow his own desires. It's an example of a trait that he never lost.
He eventually returned to the Order, but it did not help the utter lack of trust between himself and his Master. Though they eventually built fondness, respect, and not just , but a profound amount of trust - between them the fundamental insecurity of being rejected never entirely goes away. He didn't quite lose the temper, the recklessness, or the willingness to rush headlong into danger in pursuit of what he believed to be right, but it did make him dedicate himself even more fully to not just being a good Jedi Knight, but to being a Good Jedi. This resulted in some... tempering of his worst traits. There were fewer fights and more sarcastic remarks.
He did, in fact, become a very good Jedi. He truly loves, truly wants to help, truly does not want to fight and fully embraces the tenants of being a Jedi, in as much as it is possible for any living things to do. He is even better at projecting the perfect Jedi Mask. Always calm, always composed, never complaining, always dutiful and steady. The only exception that he allows himself is in the form of sarcasm, biting wit, and a very particular kind of humor that mostly involves mild insults and joking complaints.
He never really quite stopped being more vulnerable to feelings of doubt, guilt, and self-loathing, though and he never learned to trust easily. Traits that he hid very well, in general, but also had an enormous negative impact on his relationship with Anakin in particular, and that were heightened by the fact that Qui-Gon died and tasked him with training Anakin while Obi-Wan was still a padwan himself. He went to the temple, he told them he would train Anakin and he did, but he never. quite. felt equipped.
He felt he was failing Anakin, even before he really, finally did fail him. The more he loved Anakin, the more he became attached to him, the less he had any idea what to do with him, or how to help him. The more he loved him, the more he defended him, made excuses for him, and-
The more blind he became to what was happening to, and with, Anakin.
Because when Obi-Wan loves, when he does attach, he does so deeply and completely.
The war helped none of that. He was - and is - a proficient leader, but self-doubt, however buried, the atrocities of a seemingly unending war that he was fighting and, beyond his sworn duty to defend the Republic, wanted absolutely no part of, wore on him. It wore on him more in light of his growth as a Jedi. That effort to be a good Jedi making him good at being a Jedi. He became less angry. His preferred (and mastered) fighting style became one focused entirely of defense. He became less angry and more thoroughly sick of death and pain. His faith in the Force and the Order grew even has his ability to stomach war and his energy declined and more demands were made of him.
He didn't see what was happening right in front of his eyes. Not with the War, not with the Senate, not with Anakin. That failure devastated him. It still devastates him. Yoda demanding he kill Anakin only added to that. He failed the republic and the Jedi, but Anakin he failed personally, and given his commitment to duty, his promise to Qui-Gon, and his self-doubt about being a Jedi, it is not a failure he is likely to ever forgive himself for.
As he comes into game he has hit rock bottom. The entire framework of his life is gone with the Jedi Order. He knows now exactly how badly he failed, how blind he was, and he is hurting, badly. He is grieving from both Anakin and for the loss of the Order and every friend and child who made it up. He is guilty. He has no idea if Padme or the children she carried are alive. He doesn't even know if Yoda is alive.
But he is still Obi-Wan Kenobi, which means a certain kind of brash recklessness, tempered by age and experience (and pain), with a stubborn streak that does not stop, quiet resilience, a near endless well of compassion and desire to help others, and above all a witty, sarcastic, sometimes biting sense of humor.
Abilities: https://starwars.fandom.com/wiki/Force_power
Abilities:
Obi-Wan is a Jedi Master, and as such comes with the standard abilities of a Jedi - a 'Light-Side' force user with training.
He is able to sense other force users as force users, but he also has a sense of the environment around him, and the people within it and their emotions. It is, if a translation is needed, effectively a deep, but diffuse empathy toward all living things, particularly those near by - and a sense of connection to them. This also enables him to determine their physical condition.
He is able to use the force to perform what amounts to acts of telekinesis (picking up and moving objects, from bringing his lightsaber back to his hand to picking up, pulling down, or throwing, objects at opponents in battle). This is related to, but not exactly the same as Force Push, which is used almost exclusively against another person and is far more raw power than fine control.
He is able to use The Force to enhance his endurance, speed, and agility. This is how Jedi accomplish their feats of acrobatics (enormously high back flips over opponent, impossible leaps both in height and distance, blindingly fast lightsaber combat, taking beatings, fighting longer and with more athleticism than a human would be able to manage, even flight missions that would be suicide for unenhanced, human reflexes, or deflecting blaster bolts). It is what makes things, 'merely difficult, not impossible' - as Obi-Wan thinks of countering *18 lightsaber strikes a second* when fighting Grievous.
This ability also extends to being able to use the force for some limited amounts of healing (in his case mostly himself, though he could manage a crude sort of 'energy transfer' to someone else.
Obi-Wan in particular has studied and can use with good success the Jedi Mind Trick, which is the ability to plant a suggestion into the mind of a weaker minded person. The other thing that he has a bit of talent and quite a bit of practice at, is an extension of the Mind Trick and that is the ability to sooth and calm animals. He is only able to do this for short periods of time with more aggressive animals, but can manage fairly well with the more docile ones.
This can also be used, with rather more force (pun intended) to put someone to sleep, even if they aren't 'weak minded'.
All force abilities require energy and concentration. Exhaustion can be forestalled, but there are limitations.
Skills:
Obi-Wan is a very, very good pilot. He is no where on par with someone like Anakin, but is still very good. He's able to fly in battlefield situations, through asteroids and debris, and pick up an alien ship about which he knows nothing and fly it. He hates flying, and he doesn't want to do it. Please, don't make him.
He is proficient at hand-to-hand fighting and combat and a good marksman, able to hold his own in a fight even without his lightsaber and shows himself capable of hitting rapid, moving, targets with a blaster (though he hates the things) when necessary.
He is a phenomenal swordsman. He knows, and is quite good at, several of the more aggressive styles of lightsaber combat (particularly Ataru, which is what he originally learned from Qui-Gon) and includes sequences from them into his form, but his focus (beginning at Qui-Gon's death) is Soresu. In the novelization of Return of the Sith, Mace Windu calls him not just a Master of his chosen form, but The Master. That said, his chosen form is nearly entirely defensive.
He'd also really rather not fight, which leads to another primary skill and the source of his nickname: The Negotiator. He would rather disarm than kill, and he'd much rather talk than fight. He is very good at being disarming (conversationally as well as literally) at soothing feelings, and seeing points of contention and easing them. He also has a great deal of compassion, which helps.
His real, primary, and perhaps most important skill is that he is determined. He isn't particularly powerful, or naturally in tune with the Force. What he is able to do, he is able to do not because of raw talent, but because of hard work and dogged persistence.
Alignment: Peromei. Despair and hope are the themes that define his life. After the fall of the Republic, Jedi, and Anakin, yes, but also earlier - on countless other missions and after other losses. He is always walking the tightrope between the two. At risk at falling to despair, and struggling to remain hopeful.
Other: He is no stronger or tougher than your average human in regard to damage. He can, however, function through a pretty darned impressive degree of damage and his pain threshold is pretty unreal (by bog-standard human standards, anyway)
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Cal/Survived66
Apr. 17th, 2020 05:09 pmHe hadn't been stretching the truth at all when he said he was looking forward to a chance to catch up with Cal. Nor had Cal been exaggerating when he'd said it was rare that they were at the temple at the same time, much less able to sit down and share a meal and time together. It was true for a lot of friendships in the Order - people being pulled different directions, schedules off, ships in the night etc - and it was more true since the war had begun in earnest.
He doesn't spend any unusual amount of time cleaning up or worrying about his appearance - he's too Jedi for that - but he does take the time to clean up after his harrowing brush with death as Anakin's passenger. When he gets word that the medical droid has released Cal, he suggests that rather than going to the dining hall Cal just come to his quarters. There's no (necessarily ) ulterior motives for that, beyond it being easier to catch up in a quieter environment.
When the chime at the door announces that Cal's there he opens the door and greets him there. "Tea is ready, food is not quite and you look - better than I expected you to." That... wasn't saying much, especially not freshly released from medical.
He doesn't spend any unusual amount of time cleaning up or worrying about his appearance - he's too Jedi for that - but he does take the time to clean up after his harrowing brush with death as Anakin's passenger. When he gets word that the medical droid has released Cal, he suggests that rather than going to the dining hall Cal just come to his quarters. There's no (necessarily ) ulterior motives for that, beyond it being easier to catch up in a quieter environment.
When the chime at the door announces that Cal's there he opens the door and greets him there. "Tea is ready, food is not quite and you look - better than I expected you to." That... wasn't saying much, especially not freshly released from medical.
You know who you are.
Jan. 21st, 2020 04:12 pmThe last time he saw Anakin was before he'd left for Upatu to fight Grievous. He'd told Anakin he was proud of him.
He'd survived his troops turning on him.
He'd survived the return to the temple to change the recall beacon.
He'd survived seeing the security footage of Anakin leading the army into the temple and the destruction and slaughter that had happened there, if barely.
He'd survived his fight with Yoda, against Palpatine - if also, barely and with the acquisition of some new scars.
After that - he hadn't exactly run, and he hadn't particularly hidden. It was more that he stopped wearing particularly recognizable Jedi clothing out of necessity and drifted because he had no... person or place to hold him in one spot.
His avoidance of the Empire and Inquisitors was a thing that was done but done almost passively. Avoidance of, not fleeing from. He didn't get the impression anyone was particularly after him - probably assumed he was dead with the rest.
Certainly the Inquisitor who finally caught him seemed to have no idea who he was, beyond Jedi. Except - he was still alive and sitting in a holding cell with a collar around his neck and hands cuffed - in front of him - rather than dead.
He didn't ask questions. He particularly didn't ask why. He just closed his eyes, tipped his head back against the wall at his back, and waited without much concern. Not so much acceptance or peace as not having any particular reason to care.
He'd survived his troops turning on him.
He'd survived the return to the temple to change the recall beacon.
He'd survived seeing the security footage of Anakin leading the army into the temple and the destruction and slaughter that had happened there, if barely.
He'd survived his fight with Yoda, against Palpatine - if also, barely and with the acquisition of some new scars.
After that - he hadn't exactly run, and he hadn't particularly hidden. It was more that he stopped wearing particularly recognizable Jedi clothing out of necessity and drifted because he had no... person or place to hold him in one spot.
His avoidance of the Empire and Inquisitors was a thing that was done but done almost passively. Avoidance of, not fleeing from. He didn't get the impression anyone was particularly after him - probably assumed he was dead with the rest.
Certainly the Inquisitor who finally caught him seemed to have no idea who he was, beyond Jedi. Except - he was still alive and sitting in a holding cell with a collar around his neck and hands cuffed - in front of him - rather than dead.
He didn't ask questions. He particularly didn't ask why. He just closed his eyes, tipped his head back against the wall at his back, and waited without much concern. Not so much acceptance or peace as not having any particular reason to care.
That first mission, when he'd chosen Alec almost on impulse, based on bare glimmers of ... an independence and kind of intelligence that set him apart, turned into more. Every time he was given an assignment that didn't involve an entire blasted army, he chose Alec - and chose him with increasing deliberateness.
The mission to Upatu to bring in Grievous did involve an entire battalion, but it also called for exactly one Jedi to go in alone, to find the separatist leader before ships landed or troops deployed.
So, he went in alone, he found and engaged Grievous. When the absolute swarms of droids were deployed and Grievous realized that - again - running away was the best option, ships descended and boots his the ground.
He felt them all as individual lives, but he was most aware of Cody... and Alec.
He stayed on Grievous, trusting the Clones to handle the droid army, and keep them off his back so he could do his job. It wasn't anything all that unusual up to that point. A lot of dodging, some near misses, a chase, and a brutal hand to ...cyborg fight that ended with him using a blaster of all things to finish Grievous off.
He made it back to the battle arena, gave Cody instructions to move the troops to the higher levels and had his fallen light-saber returned to him by Cody. It was all... perfectly normal.
Until it wasn't.
Until part way up the steep rock wall he became the target.
Of his own men.
There was no malice or ill intention to warn him. Just suddenly at the center of a hornet swarm of fire. He had just about enough time to register that his men were shooting at him before the rock ledge he was on was hit.
He fell, slamming hard into the edge of the cliff face on his way down.
That alone would have knocked him unconscious, but the feeling of other Jedi deaths across the galaxy tearing through his mind pushed him even deeper into unconsciousness.
He hit water, a small opening of an underground river by luck -
Which, really, ultimately, only meant that he was going to drown, since he was deeply unconscious.
The mission to Upatu to bring in Grievous did involve an entire battalion, but it also called for exactly one Jedi to go in alone, to find the separatist leader before ships landed or troops deployed.
So, he went in alone, he found and engaged Grievous. When the absolute swarms of droids were deployed and Grievous realized that - again - running away was the best option, ships descended and boots his the ground.
He felt them all as individual lives, but he was most aware of Cody... and Alec.
He stayed on Grievous, trusting the Clones to handle the droid army, and keep them off his back so he could do his job. It wasn't anything all that unusual up to that point. A lot of dodging, some near misses, a chase, and a brutal hand to ...cyborg fight that ended with him using a blaster of all things to finish Grievous off.
He made it back to the battle arena, gave Cody instructions to move the troops to the higher levels and had his fallen light-saber returned to him by Cody. It was all... perfectly normal.
Until it wasn't.
Until part way up the steep rock wall he became the target.
Of his own men.
There was no malice or ill intention to warn him. Just suddenly at the center of a hornet swarm of fire. He had just about enough time to register that his men were shooting at him before the rock ledge he was on was hit.
He fell, slamming hard into the edge of the cliff face on his way down.
That alone would have knocked him unconscious, but the feeling of other Jedi deaths across the galaxy tearing through his mind pushed him even deeper into unconsciousness.
He hit water, a small opening of an underground river by luck -
Which, really, ultimately, only meant that he was going to drown, since he was deeply unconscious.
Hero_With_No_Fear
Dec. 23rd, 2019 03:53 pmThere are precious few decisions that are easy.
When it comes to decisions regarding Anakin, even fewer of them are easy. The decision to never tell Anakin that his 'jokes' about Anakin being the death of him aren't really jokes? As near to easy as they come.
The decision to tell Anakin that Padme is pregnant? More difficult than any decision to date - except perhaps leaving Satine to stay with the Jedi. That he had made that decision - had that experience - may be making the decision harder. He knows what the consequences of this can be, and likely will be, and-
And allowing things to play out would be much more comfortable for him, on a number of levels. It may also well be the right thing to do.
But he has decided, so it's time to act.
He makes time to find Anakin, and says with simple directness but utter seriousness: "We need to speak. In private."
When it comes to decisions regarding Anakin, even fewer of them are easy. The decision to never tell Anakin that his 'jokes' about Anakin being the death of him aren't really jokes? As near to easy as they come.
The decision to tell Anakin that Padme is pregnant? More difficult than any decision to date - except perhaps leaving Satine to stay with the Jedi. That he had made that decision - had that experience - may be making the decision harder. He knows what the consequences of this can be, and likely will be, and-
And allowing things to play out would be much more comfortable for him, on a number of levels. It may also well be the right thing to do.
But he has decided, so it's time to act.
He makes time to find Anakin, and says with simple directness but utter seriousness: "We need to speak. In private."